#MentalHealthAwarenessWeek2020 – We are already aware!

This is a reblog from Charlie Richards’ blog Recolourising Life This last Sunday (24/05) marks the end of this year’s Mental Health Awareness Week. I have quite mixed views about MHAW for various reasons, but my opinion can best be summarised as: We need to be encouraging action, not awareness. We are already aware. When I say we areContinue reading “#MentalHealthAwarenessWeek2020 – We are already aware!”

No one can fix this mess… Maybe it’s reasonable to cry… Maybe being one of many helpline callers tonight is a sign that this crisis is a big one.

TW: Self Harm Heather‘s #MadCovidDiaries 27.5.2020  I’ve been crying for an hour by the time I make the call. People say crying is therapeutic, like a flash storm – it’s a sudden spurt of emotion that clears all the cobwebs away. I’ve been sat, fully dressed in the empty bath tub alone for an hourContinue reading “No one can fix this mess… Maybe it’s reasonable to cry… Maybe being one of many helpline callers tonight is a sign that this crisis is a big one.”

This whole experience is really taking a mental and physical toll on my body. Each day to me actually represents three or four days of pre-covid time.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 25.5.2020  Yesterday, my mum reiterated her desire to come drive to see me even if it was just from afar. A couple of weeks ago, I was seriously considering self isolating in preparation for relaxing of lockdown rules and asking my parents to do the same. Unfortunately, trying to convince my mum thatContinue reading “This whole experience is really taking a mental and physical toll on my body. Each day to me actually represents three or four days of pre-covid time.”

I’m off to get ready for a virtual Zoom cocktail party tonight! I’m loving the possibilities for remote connection that are springing up. I never want those to go away.

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 9: May 18th to May 24th Hi all. I’ve been generally feeling more positive this week. I made the tough decision to keep my four year old off preschool for the rest of the school year (I also have a two year old at home).  I feel lucky to haveContinue reading “I’m off to get ready for a virtual Zoom cocktail party tonight! I’m loving the possibilities for remote connection that are springing up. I never want those to go away.”

This pandemic is killing us for different reasons.

Lucy’s #MadCovidDiaries 24.5.2020  TW: Self harm, suicide and thoughts of suicide are discussed throughout. ‘This pandemic is killing us for different reasons.’ Is it Week 8 of lockdown? Week 9? I don’t even know any more. All the days are blurring into one, all as bleak as each other. Life may be the same, theContinue reading “This pandemic is killing us for different reasons.”

Self harm is something many living with mental illness have experienced, and yet it remains something people are squeamish about, that they reject, that they shame us for.

Hope’s #MadCovidDiaries Tuesday 21.5.2020 TW: Self Harm Because it’s been the heinously platitudinous Mental Health Awareness Week this week, and inspired by @mugamnesty’s recent blog on psychosis, I’ve decided to write this diary about self harm. Self harm is something many living with mental illness have experienced, and yet it remains something people are squeamishContinue reading “Self harm is something many living with mental illness have experienced, and yet it remains something people are squeamish about, that they reject, that they shame us for.”

Secret Meetings: I’m on the margins staring at the academy’s ivory towers and there’s no door let alone window in sight.

TW: Swearing Bethan‘s #MadCovidDiaries 22.5.2020  Being left out is a big thing for me.  I’ve felt like an outsider many times in my life, starting quite early when I moved schools when I was 6 – from England to Wales.  I was kept down a year, was in a Welsh school when I couldn’t speakContinue reading “Secret Meetings: I’m on the margins staring at the academy’s ivory towers and there’s no door let alone window in sight.”

Psychosis is a real illness hidden away by decades of stigma and misinformation – and buried further underground amongst the empty promises and platitudes of Mental Health Awareness Week.

TW: Psychosis @mugamnesty’s #MadCovidDiaries 19.5.2020 The Mechanisms of Psychosis Given that psychosis is one of the most ignored and maligned aspects of mental health knowledge amongst the general public, I’d like to offer you my take on the matter – by explaining exactly how psychosis took hold of my mind and turned the world upsideContinue reading “Psychosis is a real illness hidden away by decades of stigma and misinformation – and buried further underground amongst the empty promises and platitudes of Mental Health Awareness Week.”

Waiting lists are months long and racial disparities are ignored. Mental health awareness week is just not enough.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 18.5.2020  I don’t really know where to start. After a very challenging week, the weekend for me has been a lot of me trying to contain my anger and having these beautiful moments of hope. In some ways, I’m starting the cycle again of settling into this new normal but it really overwhelmsContinue reading “Waiting lists are months long and racial disparities are ignored. Mental health awareness week is just not enough.”

If you want to do us a kindness, find another way to plug the gaps. Vote for policies that prioritise the NHS and local government funding and challenge the austerity agenda.

Charlotte‘s #MadCovidDiaries 18.5.2020 Lockdown Mental Health Awareness Week So Mental Health Awareness Week has rolled around again. I’m afraid I’m one of those jaded people with severe mental illness who feels that these days and weeks ring somewhat hollow, raising “awareness” without improving services or doing much to impact on the lives of people withContinue reading “If you want to do us a kindness, find another way to plug the gaps. Vote for policies that prioritise the NHS and local government funding and challenge the austerity agenda.”

I had an email from the preschool saying my daughter could go back from June 1st. I can’t decide. There are so many strong reasons for and against.

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 8: May 11th to May 17th TW: alcohol, panic attacks, PTSD, shame It’s been a week of two halves. During the first half I felt quite positive; I had a new found direction in self help from the springboard of therapy ending. Things at home were good, as my partnerContinue reading “I had an email from the preschool saying my daughter could go back from June 1st. I can’t decide. There are so many strong reasons for and against.”

The healing power of therapy comes from a secure and trusting relationship between therapist and client, Covid-19 induced separation is the antithesis to this.

Psychotherapy and lock-down, by Anonymous 13.5.2020 “Being forced to relocate one’s practice, having phone sessions, and responding to personal questions are all indications of the changed treatment frame, conscious manifestations of the boundary alterations that take place, and a reminder that psychotherapy can never be business as usual after a shared trauma of this magnitude.”Continue reading “The healing power of therapy comes from a secure and trusting relationship between therapist and client, Covid-19 induced separation is the antithesis to this.”

Watching the @MadCovid and #MadCovidDiaries community grow has been an absolute privilege and life raft for me.

Bethan’s #MadCovidDiaries 15.5.2020  Being behind the scenes helping the cogs turn has been my kind of thing for a long while. I guess that’s what I’ve been doing with #MadCovidDiaries until now.  Hi world, I’m Bethan, the diary uploader, editor, picture selector, email replier etc etc!  Watching the @MadCovid and #MadCovidDiaries community grow has beenContinue reading “Watching the @MadCovid and #MadCovidDiaries community grow has been an absolute privilege and life raft for me.”

Living a Raisin-Free Life

@mugamnesty’s #MadCovidDiaries 12.5.2020 Like the majority of people reading this, I’ve seen a fair number of psychiatrists over the years. With the exception of a few individuals, the care I received from NHS mental health services frequently left a lot to be desired. I am immensely grateful to my family and close friends, who helpedContinue reading “Living a Raisin-Free Life”

The cogs in my head have been in overdrive; what life do I want after this crisis is over. Where does my energy go? What do I care about?

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 10.5.2020  I’m feeling angry today, terrified, anxious. What did I expect after watching the waffling from our Prime Minster? I called my mum and I got really emotional, especially when her response was very much well we can’t be in lockdown forever. Last week I told her she couldn’t come to see me,Continue reading “The cogs in my head have been in overdrive; what life do I want after this crisis is over. Where does my energy go? What do I care about?”

I’m celebrating a year sober this coming week. Happy one year to me!

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 7: May 4th to May 10th  TW: Alcohol / Sobriety Did I miss a week? How did I miss a week?  It has been a difficult fortnight for me. I felt extremely low. So tired, no energy or motivation to do anything. Hopeless. Worried. It was also the fortnight leadingContinue reading “I’m celebrating a year sober this coming week. Happy one year to me!”

My stress bucket has felt like an ember, turning into a smouldering fire and yesterday finally turning into an explosion.

@outdoorperscrip‘s #MadCovidDiaries 6.5.2020 The explosion of the stress bucket So yesterday things sort of unravelled. In mental health services they often like to talk about the stress bucket, how it fills up and you need to find ways of making holes in it to let the water out to stop it from overflowing. Recently my stressContinue reading “My stress bucket has felt like an ember, turning into a smouldering fire and yesterday finally turning into an explosion.”

My OCD: Seeing Red

Hope’s #MadCovidDiaries – 6.5.2020 TW: OCD, sexual abuse, STDs, self-harm, hallucinations, disordered thinking After the recent discourse surrounding OCD and the pandemic— which, in short, seems to be suggesting it is helpful or desirable— I decided that this week I would write about my experience of OCD and why this discourse is harmful. Many membersContinue reading “My OCD: Seeing Red”

#StayAlert: The pushing back of responsibility onto the individual echoes neoliberal health and welfare policies.

Charlotte‘s #MadCovidDiaries 10.5.2020 Don’t you hate it when a partner, friend or (worse) a manager says to you, “Listen, we need to talk later. I’ll tell you what it’s about then.” Argh! Terror! What can they possibly want to say that’s so important they can’t just say now? It must be something awful! Is heContinue reading “#StayAlert: The pushing back of responsibility onto the individual echoes neoliberal health and welfare policies.”

Waiting on the Cliff Edge: The crisis of quarantine for the mentally ill.

Retropxssy‘s #MadCovidDiaries TW: Suicide, Anorexia, COVID deaths I feel as though I have been left to die. I am one of the 1 in 4 people in the world affected by a  mental health problem. ‘Normally’, despite diagnoses of complex trauma, anorexia, anxiety and depression, I’m pretty high functioning. A lot of the time, aContinue reading “Waiting on the Cliff Edge: The crisis of quarantine for the mentally ill.”