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Welcome to the #MadCovid Blog! Here we post our #MadCovidDiaries and any other madness and COVID related blogs!

#MentalHealthAwarenessWeek2020 – We are already aware!

This is a reblog from Charlie Richards’ blog Recolourising Life This last Sunday (24/05) marks the end of this year’s Mental Health Awareness Week. I have quite mixed views about MHAW for various reasons, but my opinion can best be summarised as: We need to be encouraging action, not awareness. We are already aware. When I say we areContinue reading “#MentalHealthAwarenessWeek2020 – We are already aware!”

My therapist held this power over me and yet could affirm that the experience I was having was not diseased or pathological, and was in fact positive, was remarkable and deeply validating and healing for me.

David Mordecai’s #MadCovidDiaries diary – 27.05.2020 One of memories that clearly marks how my life changed thanks to mental illness was being admitted to the overnight unit at the health centre of my university and having the staff person there write a giant ‘psi’ on her pad, which she then showed to the friend whoContinue reading “My therapist held this power over me and yet could affirm that the experience I was having was not diseased or pathological, and was in fact positive, was remarkable and deeply validating and healing for me.”

Brave New World? #9

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 29.5.2020 Tony adds his 9th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. LEAVES ON THE LINE Golden leaves Swirl past the window Sighing on air F             A       LContinue reading “Brave New World? #9”

No one can fix this mess… Maybe it’s reasonable to cry… Maybe being one of many helpline callers tonight is a sign that this crisis is a big one.

TW: Self Harm Heather‘s #MadCovidDiaries 27.5.2020  I’ve been crying for an hour by the time I make the call. People say crying is therapeutic, like a flash storm – it’s a sudden spurt of emotion that clears all the cobwebs away. I’ve been sat, fully dressed in the empty bath tub alone for an hourContinue reading “No one can fix this mess… Maybe it’s reasonable to cry… Maybe being one of many helpline callers tonight is a sign that this crisis is a big one.”

This whole experience is really taking a mental and physical toll on my body. Each day to me actually represents three or four days of pre-covid time.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 25.5.2020  Yesterday, my mum reiterated her desire to come drive to see me even if it was just from afar. A couple of weeks ago, I was seriously considering self isolating in preparation for relaxing of lockdown rules and asking my parents to do the same. Unfortunately, trying to convince my mum thatContinue reading “This whole experience is really taking a mental and physical toll on my body. Each day to me actually represents three or four days of pre-covid time.”

I’m amazed at the brass neck on Johnson. It’s like being in some George Orwell novel.

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 25.5.2020 TW: Swearing. Jo’s tenth vlog is out now!  Jo is not happy about Dominic Cummings’ antics in Durham when he should have been adhering to the lockdown and then using Autism as a defence. She’s also not happy with the way Boris Johnson has stood by him. On a positive note, she’sContinue reading “I’m amazed at the brass neck on Johnson. It’s like being in some George Orwell novel.”

I’m off to get ready for a virtual Zoom cocktail party tonight! I’m loving the possibilities for remote connection that are springing up. I never want those to go away.

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 9: May 18th to May 24th Hi all. I’ve been generally feeling more positive this week. I made the tough decision to keep my four year old off preschool for the rest of the school year (I also have a two year old at home).  I feel lucky to haveContinue reading “I’m off to get ready for a virtual Zoom cocktail party tonight! I’m loving the possibilities for remote connection that are springing up. I never want those to go away.”

Nature

Steve’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 26.5.2020 Steve shares some more of his amazing collection of photographs on the topic ‘Nature’! He’s happy to receive suggestions about photo topics – he has a big collection of photographs he’d like to share with everyone.  Thank you Steve :  ) This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0Continue reading “Nature”

Self harm is something many living with mental illness have experienced, and yet it remains something people are squeamish about, that they reject, that they shame us for.

Hope’s #MadCovidDiaries Tuesday 21.5.2020 TW: Self Harm Because it’s been the heinously platitudinous Mental Health Awareness Week this week, and inspired by @mugamnesty’s recent blog on psychosis, I’ve decided to write this diary about self harm. Self harm is something many living with mental illness have experienced, and yet it remains something people are squeamishContinue reading “Self harm is something many living with mental illness have experienced, and yet it remains something people are squeamish about, that they reject, that they shame us for.”

“I’ll just give you a call once a week to make sure you’re alive”: The impact of changes to mental health service delivery during COVID19. Part 2

Last week we published part 1 of a blog about changes to the delivery of mental health services during COVID19, based on 16 interviews that we’ve done with people using mental health services across the UK. In that blog we highlighted major changes, including significant reductions in contact, inconsistent and ad-hoc check-ins, disparities in theContinue reading ““I’ll just give you a call once a week to make sure you’re alive”: The impact of changes to mental health service delivery during COVID19. Part 2”

Mad Covid Voices, with Avery

21st April 2020 How has your care changed since COVID19? All of my face-to-face appointments have been cancelled, or moved to telephone appointments, but in the telephone appointments they’re not really been able to make another appointment. It’s just kind of been a one-off “are you currently fine?” level of contact, kind of for theContinue reading “Mad Covid Voices, with Avery”

Mad Covid Voices, with Eli

17th April 2020 How has your care changed since COVID19? My care hasn’t really changed. I knew I’d be discharged from Early Intervention around Feb 2020, so I guess this process has basically just been a little more disorganised!  I was contacted by someone from EIT yesterday who wanted to do the usual questionnaires theyContinue reading “Mad Covid Voices, with Eli”

Brave New World? #8

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 22.5.2020 Tony adds his 8th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. UNEXPECTED Walking in the dusk , air damp With the scent of floating blossom. Maytime  : justContinue reading “Brave New World? #8”

Secret Meetings: I’m on the margins staring at the academy’s ivory towers and there’s no door let alone window in sight.

TW: Swearing Bethan‘s #MadCovidDiaries 22.5.2020  Being left out is a big thing for me.  I’ve felt like an outsider many times in my life, starting quite early when I moved schools when I was 6 – from England to Wales.  I was kept down a year, was in a Welsh school when I couldn’t speakContinue reading “Secret Meetings: I’m on the margins staring at the academy’s ivory towers and there’s no door let alone window in sight.”

COVID is casting the choices between health and wealth in the starkest possible terms.

David Mordecai’s #MadCovidDiaries diary – 19.05.2020 I am in Toronto, Canada, and our political leadership would like us to believe that we are far enough along in our response to COVID to end our shutdown. My garden business was allowed to resume operations on May 4th. That’s shifted a lot in my life and isContinue reading “COVID is casting the choices between health and wealth in the starkest possible terms.”

#MentalHealthAwarenessWeek2020: I find the whole thing extremely hollow

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 18.5.2020 TW: Swearing. Jo’s ninth vlog is out now!  Jo critiques mental health awareness week and doesn’t hold back! She speaks about celebrities and organisations who use it to promote themselves and workplaces who place the onus for dealing with mental health on the individual rather than making workplaces healthier. As Jo say’sContinue reading “#MentalHealthAwarenessWeek2020: I find the whole thing extremely hollow”

Psychosis is a real illness hidden away by decades of stigma and misinformation – and buried further underground amongst the empty promises and platitudes of Mental Health Awareness Week.

TW: Psychosis @mugamnesty’s #MadCovidDiaries 19.5.2020 The Mechanisms of Psychosis Given that psychosis is one of the most ignored and maligned aspects of mental health knowledge amongst the general public, I’d like to offer you my take on the matter – by explaining exactly how psychosis took hold of my mind and turned the world upsideContinue reading “Psychosis is a real illness hidden away by decades of stigma and misinformation – and buried further underground amongst the empty promises and platitudes of Mental Health Awareness Week.”

Waiting lists are months long and racial disparities are ignored. Mental health awareness week is just not enough.

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 18.5.2020  I don’t really know where to start. After a very challenging week, the weekend for me has been a lot of me trying to contain my anger and having these beautiful moments of hope. In some ways, I’m starting the cycle again of settling into this new normal but it really overwhelmsContinue reading “Waiting lists are months long and racial disparities are ignored. Mental health awareness week is just not enough.”

If you want to do us a kindness, find another way to plug the gaps. Vote for policies that prioritise the NHS and local government funding and challenge the austerity agenda.

Charlotte‘s #MadCovidDiaries 18.5.2020 Lockdown Mental Health Awareness Week So Mental Health Awareness Week has rolled around again. I’m afraid I’m one of those jaded people with severe mental illness who feels that these days and weeks ring somewhat hollow, raising “awareness” without improving services or doing much to impact on the lives of people withContinue reading “If you want to do us a kindness, find another way to plug the gaps. Vote for policies that prioritise the NHS and local government funding and challenge the austerity agenda.”

I had an email from the preschool saying my daughter could go back from June 1st. I can’t decide. There are so many strong reasons for and against.

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 8: May 11th to May 17th TW: alcohol, panic attacks, PTSD, shame It’s been a week of two halves. During the first half I felt quite positive; I had a new found direction in self help from the springboard of therapy ending. Things at home were good, as my partnerContinue reading “I had an email from the preschool saying my daughter could go back from June 1st. I can’t decide. There are so many strong reasons for and against.”

“I’ll just give you a call once a week to make sure you’re alive”: Changes to how mental health services are delivered during COVID19: Part 1.

To date, we’ve done 16 interviews with people using mental health services across the UK. This is the third in a series of blogs highlighting key issues that they’re facing as a result of COVID19. Some of the people we interviewed gave consent to publish their interview in full, which are being uploaded here, andContinue reading ““I’ll just give you a call once a week to make sure you’re alive”: Changes to how mental health services are delivered during COVID19: Part 1.”

The healing power of therapy comes from a secure and trusting relationship between therapist and client, Covid-19 induced separation is the antithesis to this.

Psychotherapy and lock-down, by Anonymous 13.5.2020 “Being forced to relocate one’s practice, having phone sessions, and responding to personal questions are all indications of the changed treatment frame, conscious manifestations of the boundary alterations that take place, and a reminder that psychotherapy can never be business as usual after a shared trauma of this magnitude.”Continue reading “The healing power of therapy comes from a secure and trusting relationship between therapist and client, Covid-19 induced separation is the antithesis to this.”

Watching the @MadCovid and #MadCovidDiaries community grow has been an absolute privilege and life raft for me.

Bethan’s #MadCovidDiaries 15.5.2020  Being behind the scenes helping the cogs turn has been my kind of thing for a long while. I guess that’s what I’ve been doing with #MadCovidDiaries until now.  Hi world, I’m Bethan, the diary uploader, editor, picture selector, email replier etc etc!  Watching the @MadCovid and #MadCovidDiaries community grow has beenContinue reading “Watching the @MadCovid and #MadCovidDiaries community grow has been an absolute privilege and life raft for me.”

Living a Raisin-Free Life

@mugamnesty’s #MadCovidDiaries 12.5.2020 Like the majority of people reading this, I’ve seen a fair number of psychiatrists over the years. With the exception of a few individuals, the care I received from NHS mental health services frequently left a lot to be desired. I am immensely grateful to my family and close friends, who helpedContinue reading “Living a Raisin-Free Life”

The cogs in my head have been in overdrive; what life do I want after this crisis is over. Where does my energy go? What do I care about?

Sunitha’s #MadCovidDiaries 10.5.2020  I’m feeling angry today, terrified, anxious. What did I expect after watching the waffling from our Prime Minster? I called my mum and I got really emotional, especially when her response was very much well we can’t be in lockdown forever. Last week I told her she couldn’t come to see me,Continue reading “The cogs in my head have been in overdrive; what life do I want after this crisis is over. Where does my energy go? What do I care about?”

COVID19: When it’s someone you know it becomes personal.

Jo’s #MadCovidDiaries 11.5.2020 TW: COVID death, swearing. Jo’s eighth vlog is out now!  Jo’s out in the park on her daily permitted exercise. She talks about how angry and sad she’s feeling after hearing of the death of one of her work colleagues, particularly after Boris Johnson’s announcement on Sunday the 10th of May. SheContinue reading “COVID19: When it’s someone you know it becomes personal.”

I’m celebrating a year sober this coming week. Happy one year to me!

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 7: May 4th to May 10th  TW: Alcohol / Sobriety Did I miss a week? How did I miss a week?  It has been a difficult fortnight for me. I felt extremely low. So tired, no energy or motivation to do anything. Hopeless. Worried. It was also the fortnight leadingContinue reading “I’m celebrating a year sober this coming week. Happy one year to me!”

Brave New World? #7

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 13.5.2020 Tony adds his 7th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. Tony would like to photograph more people on their doorsteps! If you’re in the Alfreton area inContinue reading “Brave New World? #7”

My stress bucket has felt like an ember, turning into a smouldering fire and yesterday finally turning into an explosion.

@outdoorperscrip‘s #MadCovidDiaries 6.5.2020 The explosion of the stress bucket So yesterday things sort of unravelled. In mental health services they often like to talk about the stress bucket, how it fills up and you need to find ways of making holes in it to let the water out to stop it from overflowing. Recently my stressContinue reading “My stress bucket has felt like an ember, turning into a smouldering fire and yesterday finally turning into an explosion.”

My OCD: Seeing Red

Hope’s #MadCovidDiaries – 6.5.2020 TW: OCD, sexual abuse, STDs, self-harm, hallucinations, disordered thinking After the recent discourse surrounding OCD and the pandemic— which, in short, seems to be suggesting it is helpful or desirable— I decided that this week I would write about my experience of OCD and why this discourse is harmful. Many membersContinue reading “My OCD: Seeing Red”

#StayAlert: The pushing back of responsibility onto the individual echoes neoliberal health and welfare policies.

Charlotte‘s #MadCovidDiaries 10.5.2020 Don’t you hate it when a partner, friend or (worse) a manager says to you, “Listen, we need to talk later. I’ll tell you what it’s about then.” Argh! Terror! What can they possibly want to say that’s so important they can’t just say now? It must be something awful! Is heContinue reading “#StayAlert: The pushing back of responsibility onto the individual echoes neoliberal health and welfare policies.”

Waiting on the Cliff Edge: The crisis of quarantine for the mentally ill.

Retropxssy‘s #MadCovidDiaries TW: Suicide, Anorexia, COVID deaths I feel as though I have been left to die. I am one of the 1 in 4 people in the world affected by a  mental health problem. ‘Normally’, despite diagnoses of complex trauma, anorexia, anxiety and depression, I’m pretty high functioning. A lot of the time, aContinue reading “Waiting on the Cliff Edge: The crisis of quarantine for the mentally ill.”

BAME key workers from working class backgrounds are falling ill and dying in disproportion to the rest of the population.

By way of introduction  My name is Lol Benson, I am scouse and a middle aged white man who works at Manchester Uni as a senior lecturer in healthcare management. I first developed depression in 2010, triggered by the bereavement of my mum Kathy Benson and then over the following three years I began toContinue reading “BAME key workers from working class backgrounds are falling ill and dying in disproportion to the rest of the population.”

Quarantine eliminates hours of checking from my daily life. I don’t have to pack a bag, lock any doors, or turn off electrical appliances.

TW: Suicide, Eating Disorder, OCD. @mugamnesty’s #MadCovidDiaries 2.5.2020 Approaching work – just around the corner. Beloved violin, on my back, it’s there, check, got it. Backpack, yes, got it. Was there a third item? Why would I bring a third item to work? Can I see myself with a third item? If a colleague sawContinue reading “Quarantine eliminates hours of checking from my daily life. I don’t have to pack a bag, lock any doors, or turn off electrical appliances.”

Flying High at the Wales Air Show

Steve’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 8.5.2020 Steve shares some more of his amazing collection of photographs on the topic ‘Flying High’! He’s happy to receive suggestions about photo topics – he has a big collection of photographs he’d like to share with everyone.  Thank you Steve :  ) This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivativesContinue reading “Flying High at the Wales Air Show”

COVID19: The most devastating impact on my mental health has been to witness humanity’s greed.

Matthew Jackman The mental health and service user experience during COVID19 in Australia: from personal to professional disaster. I write alongside my heater in the lounge room as the weather reaches 8 degrees centigrade on a dreary and rainy winter like day in Melbourne, Australia. Working from home has been a struggle, as I gatherContinue reading “COVID19: The most devastating impact on my mental health has been to witness humanity’s greed.”

CLAPPED OUT: mental illness, abuse by services and #ClapForCarers

CW: iatrogenic (i.e. medical) abuse and neglect, psychiatric inpatient settings, suicide Warning: in no place in this blog will you see a reference to how ‘grateful’ we are for the NHS. State-funded healthcare, paid from taxation and free at the point of access should not be something anyone is grateful for – it is aContinue reading “CLAPPED OUT: mental illness, abuse by services and #ClapForCarers”

Mad Covid Communication Cards

We have heard from disabled people that they are being stopped while going about their business and being questioned about whether they’re following the correct social distancing rules. Social distancing as a mad/neurodivergent person or a person with a chronic illness might look different to the general public. Some examples have included: ‘Why are youContinue reading “Mad Covid Communication Cards”

Depression drops like the dead canary down the mine, alerting me of the toxic environment I’ve found myself in

TW: Abuse   Jemma’s #MadCovidDiaries 27.4.2020 2 weeks ago I thought I was cured. I was both looking forward to (and low-key fearing) a discharge, I’d survived my historical ‘Mad March’ with not so much of a hiccup. I mean I was raging everyday from the news and injustices being reported but pre covid I’d beenContinue reading “Depression drops like the dead canary down the mine, alerting me of the toxic environment I’ve found myself in”

Difficulties and uncertainties getting help in a mental health crisis.

To date, we’ve done 16 interviews with people using mental health services across the country. This is the second in a series of blogs highlighting key issues that they’re facing as a result of COVID19. Some of the people we interviewed gave consent to publish their interview in full, which will be available to readContinue reading “Difficulties and uncertainties getting help in a mental health crisis.”

Mad Covid Voices, with Jesse

14th April 2020 How has your care changed since COVID19? So obviously most things have been shifted online. I’m working with one of the EIP services (Early Intervention in Psychosis) and it’s quite intensive, they have a bunch of different things rather than just seeing someone once every few weeks. Normally my Care Coordinator wouldContinue reading “Mad Covid Voices, with Jesse”

Quaranzine Resources

This is a list of all the resources mentioned in our zine, Quaranzine. We also have a Mad Covid Support page with other resources which you may find useful. Please check them out! Playlists F You, I’m Still Alive, Nell’s Quarantine Spotify Playlist Reasons To Be Cheerful: ignoring the apocalypse, Amelia’s Spotify Playlist Everything WillContinue reading “Quaranzine Resources”

Quaranzine!

Our zine is finally ready for you to download! Thank you to everyone who submitted their work. Quaranzine grew out the idea that lots of us have already survived extended periods of isolation and restriction of movement – through ill health, state-enforced detention or just a need to be alone. We wanted to amplify theContinue reading “Quaranzine!”

I want to scream and shout, which I did manage to do when accidentally watching the news. Maybe I’ll make it my new hobby, shouting at the nonsense people say, particularly politicians.

TW: Thoughts of physical violence Sunitha’s third #MadCovidDiaries 3.5.2020  It’s been more than two weeks since I last wrote. Not sure why, mixture of very good mood periods where I felt I wanted to be free from technology and low mood points where I just wanted to binge watch some terrible TV show, to escapeContinue reading “I want to scream and shout, which I did manage to do when accidentally watching the news. Maybe I’ll make it my new hobby, shouting at the nonsense people say, particularly politicians.”

COVID-19 and the normalisation of mental illness

Ashley Curry, Jo Edge and Ruth Ann Harpur CW: references to suicide, mental illness and psychiatry Lucy Johnstone’s assertion in her Guardian letter (25 March 2020) of needing a ‘normalising approach’ to COVID-19 and that we are ‘all in this together’ risks minimising the enormous impact of the pandemic on mental health and mental illnessContinue reading “COVID-19 and the normalisation of mental illness”

The failures of our past economies are making us vulnerable. We need to choose to value different things economically.

David Mordecai’s #MadCovidDiaries diary – 1.05.2020 It’s been strange to go from five weeks when my mood felt remarkably good and stable, to a place where I’ve needed to interpret the signs of what my brain and body are doing sometimes moment by moment in order to decide what kind of interventions to make. FirstContinue reading “The failures of our past economies are making us vulnerable. We need to choose to value different things economically.”

Brave New World? #6

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 2.5.2020 Tony adds his 6th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This week Tony launched a video – check it out: UNEXPECTED Walking in the dusk , airContinue reading “Brave New World? #6”

For my loved one

TW: Abortion, eating distress, health anxiety Hope’s #MadCovidDiaries – 23.4.2020 Thanks for the dance, and the baby you carried It was almost a daughter or a son                                     — Leonard Cohen, Thanks for the Dance, 2019 You don’t like this song, because it makes you think about dying, about saying thank you as a goodbye.Continue reading “For my loved one”

Beautiful Decay

Steve’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 30.4.2020 Steve shares some more of his amazing collection of photographs on the topic ‘Beautiful Decay’! He’s happy to receive suggestions about photo topics – he has a big collection of photographs he’d like to share with everyone.  Thank you Steve :  ) This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivativesContinue reading “Beautiful Decay”

Each week I am having to adjust the food I buy to follow my meal plan. This becomes more complicated when items have been panic bought.

It often feels like I am spending my whole time thinking about food, figuring out how to get items, how to cope with challenging changes to my meal plan and worrying about running out of things. TW: Anorexia, restraint, suicide, detention, benzodiazepine withdrawal   @outdoorperscrip’s #MadCovidDiaries 27.4.2020 I sit on my sofa and refresh the TescoContinue reading “Each week I am having to adjust the food I buy to follow my meal plan. This becomes more complicated when items have been panic bought.”

These days, the rising sun sometimes brings heavy feelings of sadness and dread.

Eva’s #MadCovidDiaries Diary 24.4.2020 TW: Sixth Week in Lockdown Started off the day in a slump. Sleep erratic. Took a Zopi around 4am. Fall asleep reading a book. A Thousand Splendid Sun’s. Woke up on top of it.  As my eyes settled in the daylight, I groaned. These days, the rising sun sometimes brings heavy feelings of sadnessContinue reading “These days, the rising sun sometimes brings heavy feelings of sadness and dread.”

Hands off: A little bit of spoken word poetry for all the MH researchers out there.

Hands off! This work is mine. Just because I like to write, Does not mean that it’s fine For you to take my work. That I somehow won’t mind, Because I do mind. It matters very much to me That I have control, In life, And in the things that I write. It matters very much to me That I keep that control. It’s not thatContinue reading “Hands off: A little bit of spoken word poetry for all the MH researchers out there.”

Difficulties accessing, reviewing and monitoring medication during COVID19, is compromising the safety of people using mental health services and increasing their anxiety.

Over the past 10 days, we’ve been carrying out interviews with people in primary, secondary and inpatient mental health services across the U.K as part of our #MadCovidVoices project. So far, 14 people have given accounts of how the pandemic is affecting their mental health and their treatment. This is the first in a seriesContinue reading “Difficulties accessing, reviewing and monitoring medication during COVID19, is compromising the safety of people using mental health services and increasing their anxiety.”

Depression, as I had been dreading since the first few days of quarantine, has finally started settling in and it’s just as bad as I wished it wouldn’t be.

Emilie’s #MadCovidDiaries 23.4.2020 TW: Severe Depression As I write this, we are on day 39 of the quarantine here in France. I’ve started seeing people again, since most of us have been quarantining for over a month now. Pretty much, I’ve only seen my father who came to see me twice in the last coupleContinue reading “Depression, as I had been dreading since the first few days of quarantine, has finally started settling in and it’s just as bad as I wished it wouldn’t be.”

No, I didn’t know that Boris Johnson had missed five COBRA meetings, but I was so unsurprised that it didn’t even feel like new information to me.

Hope’s #MadCovidDiaries Tuesday 21.4.2020 TW: Miscarriage, COVID deaths I am getting so angry that anger doesn’t feel like anger anymore, it just feels like being tired. The first week of the pandemic I spent staring at the news and just shaking with rage. It became unsustainable and I started trying to get into some otherContinue reading “No, I didn’t know that Boris Johnson had missed five COBRA meetings, but I was so unsurprised that it didn’t even feel like new information to me.”

COVID19 has created a sense of time between my recent trauma, and the collective trauma we’re going through right now. It’s pulled me intensely, and forcefully, into the present moment.

  Ellie’s #MadCovidDiaries #Midnight Waffles 25.4.2020 This diary, ‘midnight waffles’, started a couple of weeks before the lockdown, having recently escaped a mental health services blackhole somewhere near South London and Maudsley hospital. I was completely run into the ground having spent 3 years fighting for my patient rights – feeling like I’d been trapped in aContinue reading “COVID19 has created a sense of time between my recent trauma, and the collective trauma we’re going through right now. It’s pulled me intensely, and forcefully, into the present moment.”

The seriousness of COVID-19 is brought into sharp focus for me because my Dad lives in a long-term care home where there is currently an outbreak of at least three-dozen cases.

David Mordecai’s #MadCovidDiaries diary -Thursday April 23, 2020! Between my last #MadCovidDiaries update and today I’ve been floundering mood-wise. I did write daily entries but they just talked about being down. Also I realised I can stick to my goal of writing something every day while the end product becomes a single weekly entry. SoContinue reading “The seriousness of COVID-19 is brought into sharp focus for me because my Dad lives in a long-term care home where there is currently an outbreak of at least three-dozen cases.”

Fireworks

Steve’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 24.4.2020 Steve shares some more of his amazing collection of photographs on the topic of fireworks! He’s happy to receive suggestions about photo topics – he has a big collection of photographs he’d like to share with everyone.  Thank you Steve :  ) This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivativesContinue reading “Fireworks”

Derren Brown vs the Coronavirus: my paranoid pandemic #5

This is the fifth and final in a series of diaries written at the beginning of the pandemic, by the inspiring and amazing @miserysquid . We’ll be releasing a new diary entry from @miserysquid, every morning this week. You can find @miserysquid’s first, second, third and fourth diary entries here. Trigger Warning: self-harm, suicidal ideation,Continue reading “Derren Brown vs the Coronavirus: my paranoid pandemic #5”

I feel like the crux of sobriety for me is thinking I’m worthwhile and precious enough to not be harmed, that I deserve to be sober and unharmed.

Human Bean‘s #MadCovidDiaries – Week 4: Week 4: April 13th to April 19th 2020  TW: Self harm; Alcohol / Sobriety I managed to get out for a walk today. I’ve been too scared to leave my house for two weeks, even though I was allowed to go for a walk or for essentials.I’m glad IContinue reading “I feel like the crux of sobriety for me is thinking I’m worthwhile and precious enough to not be harmed, that I deserve to be sober and unharmed.”

Having my treatment come to such an abrupt end was devastating….I was far from stable, and the prospect of suddenly having my support withdrawn was frightening.

Lucy’s #MadCovidDiaries 18.4.2020  TW: Suicide There was a shocked silence in the lounge area of the acute day treatment unit (ADTU): a silence that lasted a good 60 seconds. Then the questions started. Did we have to go home right now? Would we get home visits? What was going to happen about medication management? ItContinue reading “Having my treatment come to such an abrupt end was devastating….I was far from stable, and the prospect of suddenly having my support withdrawn was frightening.”

Derren Brown vs the Coronavirus: my paranoid pandemic #4

This is the fourth in a series of diaries written at the beginning of the pandemic, by the inspiring and amazing @miserysquid . We’ll be releasing a new diary entry from @miserysquid, every morning this week. You can find @miserysquid’s first, second and third diary entries here. Trigger Warning: self-harm, suicidal ideation, hypomania, psychosis, paranoia,Continue reading “Derren Brown vs the Coronavirus: my paranoid pandemic #4”

Brave New World? #5

Tony’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 22.4.2020 Tony adds his 5th instalment of photos to the collection ‘Brave New World?’. He takes photos on his daily short walks under lockdown in the UK. You can read more about his work here. This week Tony launched a new exhibition – check it out here! Bearly Corno DONT Leaves ExitContinue reading “Brave New World? #5”

Derren Brown vs the Coronavirus: my paranoid pandemic #3

This is the third in a series of diaries written at the beginning of the pandemic, by the inspiring and amazing @miserysquid . We’ll be releasing a new diary entry from @miserysquid, every morning this week. You can find @miserysquid’s first diary here and second diary here. Trigger Warning: self-harm, suicidal ideation, hypomania, psychosis, paranoia.Continue reading “Derren Brown vs the Coronavirus: my paranoid pandemic #3”

Template letters for people requiring exercise more than once a day due to mental health

The UK government recently clarified it’s guidance on how many times you can leave your home if you have a significant health condition. You can now leave your house MORE than once a day if you have a specific need to exercise, in line with your care plan. This includes people with mental health conditions,Continue reading “Template letters for people requiring exercise more than once a day due to mental health”

I was tempted to call the mental health duty desk this weekend but got put off by imagining exhausted care workers at the end of their tether, with yet another depressive soul.

Eva’s #MadCovidDiaries Diary 14.4.2020 02:31 TW: COVID, depression, suicide ‘Kintsugi’ means golden joinery. The Japanese art of taking broken crockery and joining it together again with gold. The repairs are visible, but that’s what makes them beautiful. Such a powerful metaphor to be taken from today’s therapy session. I’m lucky to have a therapist thatContinue reading “I was tempted to call the mental health duty desk this weekend but got put off by imagining exhausted care workers at the end of their tether, with yet another depressive soul.”

Derren Brown vs the Coronavirus: my paranoid pandemic #2

This is the second in a series of diaries written at the beginning of the pandemic, by the inspiring and amazing @miserysquid. We’ll be releasing a new diary entry from @miserysquid, every morning this week. You can find @miserysquid’s first diary entry here. Trigger Warning: self-harm, suicidal ideation, hypomania, psychosis, paranoia. Tuesday 24th March –Continue reading “Derren Brown vs the Coronavirus: my paranoid pandemic #2”

I’ve had days where all I can manage is getting out of bed to use the toilet and possibly eat sugary cereal with creamy whole milk in bed.

Sunitha’s second #MadCovidDiaries 16.4.2020  How do I even start trying to describe the last week? Today in particular has been positive but what’s happened in the middle, not so much. A friend of mine today mentioned that our emotions right now are heightened and she’s right, I have had days where all I can manageContinue reading “I’ve had days where all I can manage is getting out of bed to use the toilet and possibly eat sugary cereal with creamy whole milk in bed.”

Derren Brown vs the Coronavirus: my paranoid pandemic #1

This is the first in a series of diaries written at the beginning of the pandemic, by the inspiring and amazing @miserysquid . We’ll be releasing a new diary entry from @miserysquid, every morning this week. Trigger Warning: self-harm, suicidal ideation, hypomania, restraint, ECT, psychosis, paranoia. Sunday 22nd March 2020 – 02:15am I can’t sleep.Continue reading “Derren Brown vs the Coronavirus: my paranoid pandemic #1”

It is dislocating, going from a weekly face to face appointment to doing it over the phone. I find it disconcerting that I cannot see my therapist’s face. I cannot know what she is thinking. I can’t read her.

Ruby’s #MadCovidDiaries 15.4.2020 I thought I would feel worse than I do. Am I a fraud?  Therapy is strange. In January I began a 7 month course of weekly sessions through the NHS. With a more specific focus on OCD and my experience of it. It is dislocating, going from a weekly face to faceContinue reading “It is dislocating, going from a weekly face to face appointment to doing it over the phone. I find it disconcerting that I cannot see my therapist’s face. I cannot know what she is thinking. I can’t read her.”

Love and Tesco: A simple act of care performed by people living, eating and surviving together, has acquired this vast significance.

Hope’s #MadCovidDiaries Tuesday 14.4.2020 My partner and I have avoided going into Tesco since the lockdown. (We have been eating a lot of beans and lentils. We ran out last week.) I volunteered to go in on Thursday. My partner went in today. Each of us waited outside while the other one was inside. There’sContinue reading “Love and Tesco: A simple act of care performed by people living, eating and surviving together, has acquired this vast significance.”

Sunsets

Steve’s Photographic #MadCovidDiary 174.2020 Steve shares some more of his amazing collection of photographs on the topic of sunsets! He’s happy to receive suggestions about photo topics – he has a big collection of photographs he’d like to share with everyone.  Thank you Steve :  ) This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivativesContinue reading “Sunsets”

I have this sense that mad folks “own” the territory the world finds itself in now. I feel like we have a lot to offer. Maybe that sounds crazy.

David Mordecai’s first #MadCovidDiaries diary! I want to keep a daily diary. However #MadCovidDiaries are published weekly. This is my first week of posts. Tuesday, April 14th, 2020:  Feeling okay about feeling okay … maybe. This actually didn’t open fully until Wednesday. It’s such a source of gladness and joy for me cooped up inContinue reading “I have this sense that mad folks “own” the territory the world finds itself in now. I feel like we have a lot to offer. Maybe that sounds crazy.”

Patient Leadership is Dead – Long Live Patient Leadership (a sideways look at Covid)

This #MadCovidDiaries is a reblog from David Gilbert’s excellent blog published on the 14.4.2020 Rather than reinforcing our reverence for the heroic – our regression to applauding the tough guys who sweat it out on the frontline – this virus might serve to amplify our common vulnerability, fallibility and suffering. But also the jewels ofContinue reading “Patient Leadership is Dead – Long Live Patient Leadership (a sideways look at Covid)”

Routine mental health appointments are being cancelled in some parts of the UK

On the 25th of March, NHS England released guidance for mental health providers about how they should manage capacity and demand during the COVID pandemic.  It stated that… “COVID-19 and the national measures being announced to delay the spread of the pandemic will inevitably have significant impact on both demand for and capacity to deliverContinue reading “Routine mental health appointments are being cancelled in some parts of the UK”

Loved ones all over the world, devastated. Hollowed out by grief. A world that no longer looks and feels the same.

Eva’s #MadCovidDiaries Diary 10.4.2020 TW: COVID, depression, suicide Nearly a month since lockdown. I’m getting too used to hiding away..No one forcing me to go out anywhere. No need to be anywhere. Heard my neighbors having a laugh as I sat by the window earlier. They were having what sounded like a party.  ‘Well I’mContinue reading “Loved ones all over the world, devastated. Hollowed out by grief. A world that no longer looks and feels the same.”

Men and mental health: why we don’t engage much?

Here you can read Steve’s first #MadCovidDiaries Blog on the topic of men and mental health! You can see Steve’s amazing photography here. 14.4.2020: Men and mental health: why we don’t engage much? No doubt there are many reasons why this is: fear, isolation, embarrassment, awkwardness, uncertainty, lack of awareness. Without putting myself out thereContinue reading “Men and mental health: why we don’t engage much?”


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